purplespeak

The fire that burns its ashes and melts its heat,
i want to rise up there and win The Defeat!

purplespeak

mood : pensive
song : tum se hi

Been a long time..

Have done quite a few things lately,learnt people,loved a few,loved one and one more..its been that way with me. :P Sometimes its just nothing(heaven should surely be a white canvas) There are hundred people we meet,a few we remember for long,another few cannot forget..and last few we hate to recall.But love stays,those spent moments seem fresh even at the thought of a recall..fresh enough.They keep coming back,to kill you and make you live at the same time.Can two equally strong and opposite things stay together at the same time? i dont wonder enough about it though..
i like this eternal space for myself..this only seems true..did i say seems? no,this is the only truth.Stay for a little longer and you will know i was just another you.I know no other fact about me.

and when i would be thinking
what is it to be at nowhere

shaken by facts,grounded by myths

i would turn to you
while you look away

i will come close,with grace..
while you still keep that pace

kill me once
kill me twice
show me all that i have become in your eyes..

turn away but please dont go

you are the one
today..and tomorrow

when my soul feels glad
and a little perplexed

take me on those long rides
those which our destinies decide

take me out of my own circles

or just stare
like you do.

timeless you have become to me
and again i clarify

blank you are,
blank is what i will always be

from ::"Love in the time of Cholera"

"To him she seemed so beautiful,so seductive,so different from ordinary people,that he could not understand why no one was as disturbed as he by the clicking of her heels on the paving stones,why no one else's heart was wild with the breeze stirred by the sighs of her veils,why everyone did not go mad with the movements of her braid,the flight of her hands,the gold of her laughter.He had not missed a single one of her gestures,not one of the indications of her character,but he did not dare approach her for fear of destroying the spell.."

am still alive
under her wet eyes
under a cloud that jus sighed..

the farther she went
the heavier it poured
all for tis day,
to come to a hold..

mysteries blushed,
and silently cursed..
..the bright skies.

her magic refrained,
and she collapsed in the light of truth

Where art thou?

in the mindlessness?

in the loud silence?

in a quiter crowd?

in a melting smile?

in a frozen mind?

in a less lost you?
in the skies so blue?

in the haunted self?

in a galaxy of bliss?

in a tortured thought?

*in a milder me*

in a calm unworthy emotion?
in this most worthy illusion!?

in a hand against mine?
in a gesture so fine?

in a fractured heart?
in a missing part?

in a longing for me?
in a belonging for you..?

on hundred such occasions..

i look for myself,in the smallest of me....(?)

BLUE

I opened my eyes to an eternally stretched sea that's narrating mildly its eternal glory..The blue in the water drifting to white..like consuming all to nothing.

The soothing air over my eyelashes,touching every core of my heart..and my mind wanders all over again...Why do I want to sink into this eternal silence that's gonna last only a while longer? why do i think my end would be as dim and insignificant as the light of my maid's room? Why do i want to die cause am done and content? what is done and content? Why am i at peace with only questions on my mind?

Calmly disturbed..i open my eyes,smiling heartfully..while shedding a tear.. and believing to fill the mighty blue waters..somehow..somewhere.